UPS AND DOWNS

One day i feel better the next not so much.
i worked last night and while there found out that our hours will be changing from 9-9 during the week to 10-8. that's the way things are going now. a little over a month ago i had cut myself down to one day a week, and now I'm getting cut an hour. i don't think it's long until i get cut fully. wish we closed at 8 last night though.

i had to be at work a little earlier this morning due to the end of year crap. so now I'm exhausted.

apparently, i got my mom into baking. she'd trying to make dough with the bread machine. and i came home to her trying to cook crab rangoon. but she didn't get sweet and sour sauce. and they aren't too sweet themselves. ehh, first try.

quick update

i feel infinitely better today, but still not good. i can think...somewhat. it just sucks cause i haven't done anything this week. unless you count restless, nightmare riddled sleeping.

i want to start a project, but i need to clean and plan a bit before i can. and in all honesty i know i need at least two more days to fully recover unless i want to end up with the yuck again.

it just amazes me how many people are ending up sick. and not just in my immediate area.

orange juice and chicken broth have been my friends. i need some sleep.

I've got the YUCK

so i woke up yesterday morning with my tooth hurting. my thoughts, great, i can't afford this right now. but i realized i needed to go to the dentist for my 6 months anyway. i call and make an appointment for today. sadly, i haven't been to the dentist in over a year. i had an appointment for this time last year, and had to cancel due to be sick and just never rescheduled. shortly after making my appointment yesterday my throat starts to get a bit scratchy. i keep trying to ignore it, pretending I'm OK. day goes on it gets a bit worse. nah, I'm fine i say to myself.

I'm not fine! i woke up this morning and feel like crap. i had to cancel my appointment and will have to reschedule when i feel better. i actually, love going to the dentist too. i always get so upset about not being able to go. then i think about the fact that my birthday is next week and it seems like I'm always sick for it, at least since i was twelve.

so i slept yesterday evening. i left work early today and slept away the afternoon thanks to some medication. i feel like a zombie. ambling about with minimum control over my limbs randomly bumping into things. my heads stuffed up with so much mucus and such there is no room in there for anything else. not a single solitary thought.

i feel like crap.

PHOTOS ARE FUN

I thought i would put up a couple of photos from my weekend. nothing to exciting.

first my beautiful new PINK stone mixing bowl!!! it's love.

then my new cereal bowl....i really do have a problem with buy one or two pieces of dinnerware at a time. i think enough mis-matched things it won't matter anymore

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lastly, here are some animals, cause they are cute and everyone loves animals.

there were a whole bunch of red winged black birds, i caught this one seed in mouth

when i went outside to try to take more picture the cat snuck out. which he's usually afraid of being outside, but he's been a little funny since he started to lose weight. (how bad is it when a cat is weight loss inspiration?)

and this cute little guy is a fox squirrel.

F*CK

despite just writing a nice heartfelt, destressing, free writing post and having it saved....it's gone. all cause of my effed up computer connection. i'll try again later i'm too pissed to try now.

Surrounded by cute

I really need to get off my ass and do laundry and clean a little. but i keep getting distracted by ETSY!!!!!!

i have found these adorable fabrics...and i want them all. totaly not happening, but i want to get one of the glittery mushrooms or alice in wonderland japanese fabrics. they are cute cute cute.

lunch, laundry, trash pick. then i'll come back

Yawn..

I'm pretty happy right now, changing the background, it's nice. thanks to the makers, please go there and see them they are wonderful.

i have alot i want to say right now. however, some things i'm a bit hesitant about and it's 1:30 in the morning, so it's probably not my best interest to trust my judgement right now.

my boyfriend and i are heading up to the dc area in march. i'm super excited about it. we are going up for his birthday day and we both want to do the whole tourist thing. but in addition to that there's so much i want to show him. i grew up in maryland, lived there for over twenty years so there is soooo much to share. we are going to be exhuasted by the time we come home. i wish we could go up for a month.

sometimes i get really homesick for that area. i'm not happy in the city i live in, and i'm excited about the city i'm moving to. but nothing will ever take the place of my homestate. with that said though, there's no way i would want to live there for an extendant period ever again. it's been just over four years since i last lived there, and i know alot has changed. and when you are away from some place that has changed it's harder to deal with it. plus i'm homesick for the people. for the lack of responsiblty. last time i lived there i was much younger and at a much different stage of my life than i am now. but we all seem to romantize the past. sometimes i look at my homesickness for that place and time of my life in the same light as craving for cigarettes. we tend to gloss over the bad. but now i want to share all those fond memories i had at one point there with my boyfriend.

i'll put up some pictures tomorrow. just random stuff