Too Anxious

It may not be christmas time but i feel like im 6 again not wanting to go to sleep cause i want to see santa. im leaving in the morning to go visit my fiance who i haven't seen in over a month. i'm so excited and slightly nervous about the drive. i cat wait to run up and hug him.


also, this evening i recieved a text from my old best friend. we parted ways many years ago, but i still miss her terribly. we texted back and forth for an hour or so just catching up. i wonder sometimes what it would be like if we were friends again, if we could be. when we stopped being friends i lost a sister not a friend.

so right now im confused and happy and anxious and ready to go but need to sleep.